On the cab ride home Lily fell asleep and if I would have known what would happen when I tried to lay her down I would have paid the cab driver to keep driving for a few hours! When I tried to lay her down she woke up the grieving started. She called out to her grandma (what she called her foster mom) and searched the room for her. It was heartbreaking for us. This continued for about 30 minutes. Very loud and almost screaming. The only time she calmed down was when we skyped the boys. She liked seeing the boys on the computer screen and waving to them. When we were done making our calls she let me rock her while she cried and then fell asleep on the bed. I tried to lay down but couldn't sleep because I wondered what she would do when she woke up.When she woke up she cried a little more but started to play with her doll and some of her toys on the floor. She didn't show very much emotion and not any smiles. We decided to take a little walk outside. We walked around for about a hour and decided to head back to the hotel for some food and water. Dave was holding her and was tickling her and we got a few smiles. Her foster mom said she love fruit and veggies and seaweed and grilled white fish. She sent along a container of sticky rice and broccoli and she loved both. After she ate we started to see some personality come through. Dave went to grab a sandwich for himself and she was very observant when he left. I reassured her he would come back. When she heard the door I said see its Appa. She went running to Dave with arms held high yelling Appa Appa right into Dave's arms. The sight was truly priceless. It was right then and there she wrapped her daddy around her finger. They played on the floor, hide and seek and she ran all over the room. I took some video of that moment she came out of her shell. She comes to me for comfort and daddy to play. She will fit in perfect...just like the boys!
Her foster mom said she loved her bath so we gave her a bath. She was still all smiles but reserved again as if she was thinking this isn't like home. When it was time for bed she wanted nothing to do with that. Every time I would sit her on the bed she would climb right over me and stand on the floor. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes and her lip started to quiver. I held her tight and rocked her as she cried very quietly and fell asleep. She is still sleeping and Dave and I are awake for the day. I pray that she will have some fun moments here on our last day in Seoul. I'm sure that the grieving will return and that will be a good thing! She needs to grieve her loss so that she can bond with us.
Thank you so much for all the prayers! It helps knowing that this too will pass!!!! Enjoy the pictures!
